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Someone I know and care about spoke to me today about her tearful failure of an attempt to take the easy way out. Goodness me, the feels. Over a fucking breakup. I wanted to tell her to suck it up and face reality, and quite her time-wasting pity party... but that obviously wasn't what she needed to hear. I didn't really know what she needed to hear, so I just tried to get her to concentrate on good things. Happy things.
I wanted to mention Carlos Arredondo, who got waaay closer to that mystical oblivion than she did and then came back swinging, but the time didn't seem appropriate.

Here's a sick song I found on Soundcloud called the Hotline by someone named Julius.

Welcome to the Hotline
I was expecting to hear your voice
Now all I need to know is your weapon of choice
Gunshot, knife, or maybe you should go get a noose
like you think your white body hanging will make the news
Lethal combination, nuf to kill ten times over
Knockin on death's door like witnessing the Jehovah
Picture this: black suits, black veils, black shoes, black ties,
Ashamed, cuz they thought their daughter took her own life
Rich single mother thought she raised you right,
their angel, well at least they thought that you was,
gave you everything, I guess that wasn't enough,
you wanna hide your head and bleed
from the wounds everyday, deeper, how you feel

Downgraded heaven to hell, something special to nothing
worthless piece of shit becuase of the man you lovin
me, the asshole, I ain't ashamed to admit it
consider this my warning, cuz I just want to hit it
and I'll keep hittin til you quit it, or get tired of living

Her friends said "No, don't go..."
And I said girl, you're grown
Are you ready to die?

Welcome to the hotline
Bitch, fuck you cryin for?
Bitch, fuck you lyin for?
I'm a dog, I go bark and the bitches line up
You knew this, and still you decide to sign up

You call that lame shit a sin?
Bitch, you can't beat George Winne,
At least he knew that when one thread ends, another begins
Take a real sinner or two with you if you gotta go down in flames
and for just a little bit longer they'll remember your name

The flowers at your funeral, they were bought at Vons
You should have listened to your friends, they were so concerned
I said "Don't listen to them birds, cuz you gonna learn
That I'm heartless,
Regardless, know this, life will crush your soul, make it hard for you to take control again, make it hard for you to face your friends again,
I'll make it hard for you to give a fuck anymore, or even to pretend
ever again... ever again...

Her friends said "No, don't go..."
And I said girl, you're grown
Are you ready to die?


One way or another, life gonna take your breath away

Man why the fuck do I keep doin this?
Supposed to keep my cool, it seems like I'm just losing it
A beast, an animal, at first I thought that was good
but I looked in the mirror, and there was a monster that stood
there

We're live, paying for the people that we done wrong
Till we're gone
welcome to the hotline

My friends said "No, don't go..."
But I said, "No, I'm grown.
And I'm ready to die."